Shinigami Writes

Eren x Levi

 

It may be confusing.

 

I apologize

 

BTW I haven’t read the manga yet but I have watched the AOT anime and I love it!

Anyway. . .

 

MAJOR YAOI WARNING

 

Just sayin’s

 

Eren’s POV

I rolled over in bed, shielding my eyes from the light and blinked my blurry eyes. I tried to focus them but all I could see was a pale white wall. . .with lines and a mole and HOLY SHIT. Not again. I rolled back over on my back and groaned, holding my hands to my eyes. I sat up and rubbed my eyes saying no over and over again. I ran my hand through my hair and stared over at Levi who was asleep beside me. he was on his side and cheek was resting in his hands. His eyes were closed and his hair was slightly tousled and that only made me even more horrified.

 

“Aw, man. . .” I muttered putting my head in between my knees. This had been going on for the past two months. It had all started at some party at someone’s house and let’s just say that I followed Levi home and from then on we became gay sex friends. You know, friends who secretly have sex. It has gotten out of hand as well. Neither of us could never come out as gay without being shunned by the entire Scout Regiment, and then there was the fact that everyone thought I was in love with Mikasa. I mean, it had been true for awhile but then. . .Levi happened. I think she likes Armin anyway. Or that pervert Jean. It didn’t matter anyway. I didn’t care if people thought I was into chicks. Everyone also thinks Levi likes Sasha. It’s kinda gross. No one likes Sasha. Except Connie but that’s a whole other story.

 

            I looked over to see Levi awake, lying on his back with his arm under his head looking glumly at the ceiling.

 

“Stop beating yourself up about it, Eren. It won’t make you feel any better.” He said coldly. Everything he said was cold. It was a definite turn on. At least for me. I blushed.

 

“I just think it makes me a whore.” He said. Levi actually chuckled.

 

“Keep dreaming.” He said pushing his hair back. I lied back next him. I turned on my side and smiled at him. his eyes slid over to mine and he sighed.

 

“Eren, please stop being cute. You’re making me want to get up.” He said. I sighed and tapped his shoulder with my fingers. I whined softly.

 

“But then you’d make me sad.” I whispered. Levi turned his head to the side and looked into my eyes. I pushed myself up and pressed my lips to his. Levi looked away to hide his blush. I chuckled.

 

“I saw that.” I smiled. Levi’s lips twitched then frowned again.

 

“We gotta go.” he said quietly and stood up leaving me to glare at him.

 

“Fine.” I said and got up too. It had been harder for him to realize he liked guys then it was for me. his usual dark attitude didn’t help either. It only made my job harder to maintain a happy-ish mood to our relationship. Well, if it could be counted as a relationship. He walked to my closet where he kept a stash of his cloths just for these kind of nights. The only times we hooked up was when we needed each other.  We had, had a titan scout yesterday and some people died and it tears up Levi. I on the other had to turn into a titan, had gotten a broken thumb (which naturally is healed), and had been grumpy and depressed. And so I invited him over to dinner. Sadly, I lived with Mikasa and Armin. They know though and they think it’s cool. They also keep rumors from spreading.

 

            I stood up and walked over to my closet and started changing alongside Levi. I put on the uniform like him, leaving my jacket off. I was about to walk out the door when Levi caught me in a kiss. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulled me close. We departed and his face was burning.

 

“Sorry. I’m hungry.” He said randomly and walked out the door. Obviously Mikasa was cooking. I guess she learned from my mom. Armin was helping too since Mikasa couldn’t make breakfast for four people by herself. I followed the delicious smells downstairs to find Mikasa, like always, criticizing Armin, waving the spoon in her hand.

 

“Why would the eggs go in the pantry? They obviously go into the fridge.” She said. Armin looked like he was about to cry.

 

“I-I’m sorry Mikasa!” cried Armin bowing his head. Mikasa rolled her eyes and smiled at us.

 

“Morning Eren. Levi.” She said and with another glare at Armin, returned to scramble eggs. When breakfast was ready we all sat down and ate. Levi was quiet and so was Mikasa, mostly. And Armin kept his mouth closed with occasional scared glances at Mikasa.

 

“So what are we planning on doing today?” she asked. Levi sighed. This question was obviously for him.

 

“What do you think we’re doing today, Ackerman?” he growled.

 

“Cleaning?” suggested Armin who only got a glare from Mikasa.

 

“Bingo.” Levi said in his usual monotone and it turned me on. I blushed and giggled.

 

“What’s so funny, Jeager?” he snapped.

 

“Aww. Don’t go all Corporal on me!” I whined and he sighed and ruffled my hair playfully. I smoothed it down again with a growl.

 

“Well, I gotta go meet Erwin. Be on time you three.” He said and left.

 

Dick.

 

2.

(Still my POV)

I walked behind Armin and Mikasa as we walked towards training. Mikasa had her jacket flung over her shoulder like a boss and Armin walked nervously in her shadow. I on the other hand was scanning everywhere for my ‘friend.’ Where was that sexy little midget.

 

“Alright everyone. Line up so we can assign cleaning duties.” Called Erwin and everyone looked at him and kept socializing while slowly moving into what was a sort of line.

 

“Didn’t you hear him, lazy titan kissers? Get your asses moving!” snapped Levi and with that, all of us were in a line, silently awaiting our commands.

 

“How in the world do you do that?” whispered Erwin. Levi smirked.

 

“I dunno. Ask the unicorn pricks.” Said Levi and I thought I heard Sasha snort.

 

“Something funny, potato girl?” he asked stepping off the wall.

 

“N-no sir! N-nothing funny, sir!” she said quickly and Levi returned to his wall and crossed his arms and crossed his legs. Damn he’s so sexy. I just wanted to rip his pants off. . .

 

. . .and get expelled from the Regiment and fed to the titans. Good going, Eren.

 

“Your cleaning assignments will be. . .Mikasa and Armin will clean the windows on the third and fourth floors, Sasha and Christa will take the bathrooms, Connie and Jean will manage the dining hall and kitchen, and Eren, Captain Levi has specifically requested your help on the personal chambers and drawing rooms.” Announced Erwin. I blushed heavily and saw Levi, just a little bit, under the flap of his jacket, flash me a smile and a wink. A-a, w-wink!? Holy shit he wasn’t kidding. I blushed even harder and hid my face by looking at my boots. Damn that sexy midget.

 

“Now get going!” smiled Erwin clapping his hands and everyone ran off. I turned and walked to Levi and walked with him up the stairs. Hanji was peaking around every corner smiling creepily. She was the only one besides Mikasa and Armin who knew about me and Levi. And trust me. it wasn’t easy handling her. she was always creeping around and squealing about her ‘OTP’, whatever the titan fuck that means, and whispering how her ‘titan baby’ is growing up.

 

We walk up the stairs and into the first bedroom. No ones there and I think Hanji was dragged off by Erwin or Connie. Levi shut the door and pinned me against the wall, making my face heat up. He started to kiss my neck and it made me shiver. His grip on my wrist was a little tight so I groaned a little. I feel so naïve.

 

“Haichou, you’re hurting me.” I mumbled. He lifted himself, as best as he could, up to my lips but departed with a smile.

 

“Where?” he breathed tapping my -

 

“Lllleeevvvviiiii!” I said annoyed. He snorted and pulled me off the wall. Yeah, I guess I am his bitch. Damn. He pushed me on the bed and started to undo my uniform.

 

“It will get dirty if it falls on the floor, Haichou.” I teased. He glared up at me.

 

“Shut it, brat.” He said kissing me. I closed my eyes and sunk into him.

 

“Midget.” I breathed.

 

____ leaving the rest off to your own imagination but trust me. there will be hard yaoi in chapters to come_____

 

“Ow. My ass hurts. See this is why you’re not allowed to be on top!” I grumbled as we cleaned bedroom 4 billion. Okay, so I exaggerated a bit. It’s more like tenth. Levi smirked.

 

“I don’t want titan herpes.” He said and pulled his mask over his face so I couldn’t see him laugh.

 

“I don’t think Hanji has discovered anything related to titan STDs. Don’t worry, Levi-chan –“

 

“What the hell did you call me?” he asked turning around and giving me a death stare. He was still my captain.

 

“Levi-chan –“

 

“Don’t ever call me that, Eren-kun.” He said mopping the ceiling. I grumbled.

 

“Whatever.” I said and continued to clean. After all the cleaning was finally done, we sat in the dining hall where Mikasa, Armin, Levi and I sat alone at a table. Everyone else was too scared to talk to him. Hanji quickly slid in next to Levi.

 

“Nice to see you, Mrs. Jaeger?” asked Hanji pocking Levi. Many things happened at once. Levi spit his tea all over me and the table, I started to choke on a carrot, Mikasa tripped on the table leg and fell on Armin, and Armin screamed. Everyone in the dinning hall was silent except Hanji who had exploded in a fit of laughter. Once I was done dying – thanks sweetheart, love you too – I glared with Levi at Hanji. Everyone returned back to their conversations and it soon turned back to normal.

 

“What makes you think I’d be the wife in this situation?” growled Levi. I stared at him.

 

“Levi! Is that seriously the only thing that bothers you!?” I shouted. Levi crossed his arms.

 

“I just want to prove my point that you seem to be the more feminine one in our relationship. You’re the one who cries so easily and has nightmares. When are you expecting your next period Eren?” he asked and both Mikasa and Armin started to laugh. (well, Mikasa did this weird half laugh half breathing thing) I glared at him.

 

“What relationship? We sleep with each other when we can. It’s not like it’s official or anything.” I said. Boom. Fighting fire with fucking titan fire. Works every time. But instead of ignoring me or rolling his eyes, he got this horribly sad look on his face and he sat back in his chair, then he realized it was a stool and fell backwards with a cry and crashed onto the floor. Silence. He stood up, glared at me, and brushed himself off.

 

“You just earned yourself a time out, Jaeger. Erwin! Put him in the wall!” shouted Levi, hurt clouding his eyes. He then stormed out of the hall, walking at first then breaking into a run. What did I say that was that terrible? I don’t understand him sometimes. Damn you, Levi.

 

 

3.

(Yeah, yeah still my POV)

Oh! And chapters will have names now.

The Wall

 

I watched as Heichou ran from the room. What was up with him? Hanji swore and ran after him leaving me alone with Mikasa and Armin. Erwin approached me with a confused expression on his face.

 

"You do know what Corporal Levi said when he told me to 'put you in the wall,' right?" he asked. I shook my head. What the hell is the wall!? That sounds terrifying!

 

"Oh so i guess it's your first time. Come with me." he said and I followed him outside and to the. . .wait the literal wall!? There was a crack in it, about as skinny as my waist. . .

 

THEY'RE GOING TO LITERALLY PUT ME IN THE GODDAMN WALL!? i started to back away.

 

"Oh no. Levi told me you needed a time out so here we go." he said grabbing my collar and pulling me back. Aw man! He then lifted me up and. . .

 

You guessed it.

 

PUT ME IN THE FUCKING WALL.

 

I sat there, my backside facing the. . .

 

TITANS. OH MY GOD MY ASS COULD GET EATEN BY A BUNCH OF TITANS.

 

"Levi-chan!" i muttered angrily as I thrashed around in the little hole. Erwin laughed.

 

"Now you're supposed to think about what you did. Which frankly, I have no idea what you did to Levi but apparently it was bad enough to get you in the wall." said Erwin and left. Yes. He left me with all these goddamn titans ready to eat some teenage boy ass.

 

An hour or two passed and it was getting pretty dark. And cold. I’d thought about what I did about fifteen times in the first hour. Then I started singing.

 

"99 titans climbing over the wall, 99 titans. Take one down, slice it in half, 98 titans climbing over the wall . . ." i was finally at 5. Then a woman carrying a laundry bag came and gave me a strange look.

 

"Corporal Levi thinks I need a time out." I said and continued to sing. Then I started a new song.

 

"Eren and Levi sitting in a tree. F-U-C-K-I-N-G-" that's when the woman waked me with a broom and so now I have a bruise and a split lip and a new song stuck in my head. I started to drift off to sleep but all the blood started rushing to my head (since i was in a fucking wall) and it was hard to sleep.

 

Four hours. Five. I don't even know anymore. Everyone is asleep and I guess I have to stay here all night. Well thank you Erwin for sharing that delightful detail with me.

 

i think it's almost morning. Hopefully. I see the sun rising and hear some movement behind me.

 

TITANS!

 

But it wasn't. It was a little girl. What was she doing on the other side of the wall?

 

"Wow. So they really put you in the wall." said a voice. I craned my neck but couldn't see anyone. I didn't really need to see them though.

 

"You're the one who wanted me like this." I said crossing my arms over my chest. Levi smirked.

 

"Well at least i get a good view of this." he said pocking my ass.

 

"Hey!" i said blushing. i could hear his 3D Maneuvering Device and soon, the midget was standing in front of me.

 

"Was this really necessary?" i asked him.    

 

"Tch. course. It’s also hilarious. Who hit you with a broom?" he asked lounging against the wall.

 

"How could you tell?" I asked.

 

"Because I’ve beaten people with brooms before." he said examining his nails. I gulped.

 

"A lady who hated my song." I said.

 

"Song?" he said arching his eyebrow.

 

"Yeah. I got bored so I started to sing '99 titans climbing over the wall 99 titans. Take one down, slice it in half, 98 titans climbing over the wall -"

 

"I get it." he snapped. "That doesn't seem nearly enough for a woman to hit you. Stop lying to me Eren. What were you actually singing?"

 

"Uhhh. . ."

 

"Spit it out, titan boy."

 

"Um, I was singing, uh, 'Eren and Levi sitting in a tree.. .'" I gulped.

 

"Continue."

 

". . .uh. . .F-U-C-K-I-N-G." I said quietly. Levi looked at me and slapped me in the face.

 

"Jeez, Eren. You can't go around singing that." he said but he looked like he was about to laugh. I know I was.

 

"Where did you run off to last night anyway.?” I said trying to change the subject.

 

"The wall. I spent the night walking the perimeter." he said lightly. I nodded.

 

"That sounds like it was tiring." I said. Oh and may I remind you, I’m still in the wall.

 

"No. It got my mind off of things temporarily.,” he said. I sighed.

 

"Well this didn't make me think at all. It just causes me pain." I said squirming a little in the hole. Levi smirked.

 

"I'll let you out when I think you've learned your lesson." he said crossly.

 

"And that lesson would be. . .?"

 

"How to talk to your superiors." he growled. I sighed again and placed my head in my hand which wasn't easy considering i was . . .right. You get the point.

 

"I do know how to talk to my superiors.” I said a-matter-of-factly. Levi gritted his teeth.

 

“The what was with all that relationship bullshit earlier?” he asked glaring at me. I gulped.

 

“I was only joking, Levi-Chan.” I said quietly. He shook his head.

 

“You just can’t joke about that kind of thing, Eren.” He said and placed a hand to his forehead. “It scared me.”

 

I gasped.

 

“Really?” I asked. He nodded and slid off the wall. He started to help me out of the wall.

 

“I got it.” I mumbled but he still helped. Once I was out of the wall, we walked back to my house and yeah. We did.

 

4.

The Perks of being Homosexual

 

I sat drooling while my eyelids drooped. Why we had to have a meeting at 3 in the morning was anyone’s guess. Hanji had passed out about an hour ago and Levi would slip away in intervals. I on the other hand had both eyelids propped open by my fingers. Erwin was slurring his words too but still upright.

 

“And that’s about it.” He concluded and everyone thankfully started to leave. Hanji was now awake and once everyone was gone, not including me or sleeping Levi, she leaned back in her chair and took out a packet of papers and threw it across the table, biting her lip excitedly.

 

“What’s this?” I asked nervously eyeing it.

 

“Read it.” She said smiling.

 

I rolled my eyes.

 

Dear Hanji,

            Thank you for your letter. I have taken it into consideration and think it’s a reasonable idea. You have my total permission and you must take the following papers to the Military Police so they can sign it. It’s all very complicated but I’m sure you can figure it out. I hope this works out.

 

• Commander Erwin Smith of the Survey Corps

 

“What are you doing Hanji? More experiments?” I asked. She tapped her chin.

 

“Of some sorts. Wake him.” she said gesturing towards Levi. I tapped him on the cheek and his eyes flew open as he shouted;

 

“EREN DID IT!” he cried. I crossed my arms.

 

“Thank you, Corporal. I feel so loved.” I said sarcastically but he only glared at me.

 

“What? Did I miss something important?” he said angrily. I shook my head.

 

“Not majorly. Hanji here wants to tell us something. Apparently she’s doing another experiment.” I said. His eyes grew wide and he sat up.

 

“No more in my office. I can’t even begin to explain the hours of cleaning I had to do!” he said pointing at her.

 

“Aw, you enjoyed it. Don’t deny it.” She said. “But that isn’t the point.” She said smiling.

 

“I got permission from Erwin to do an experiment on you two. By placing you in a house with each other for one full year. Levi, I said you need to formulate a more sociable attitude and Eren needs to develop some sympathy towards others.”

 

We both were shocked.

 

“But. . .” she said waving her hand. “It was only an excuse. I just bought you two a house. Together.” She said smiling.

 

I grinned.

 

“Wow Hanji. That is actually really nice of you. Thanks.” I said. Levi nodded.

 

“It does help fix the fact that I’m never at my house and people think I’m doing drugs so yes. Arigato.” Sighed Levi.

 

2 months later

(jeez sorry. I didn’t want to talk about moving. That part is boring. And nothing happened in the titan world. Oh my god! I love saying that!)

 

I sat at the kitchen table staring at fucking bills. Yep. Even inside these god forsaken walls and in the Survey Corps, we still had goddamn bills to pay. Not just me. Levi as well, being my ‘documented partner’. No one knew of course. It had not totally been marriage but we were legally married. It felt nice. Having my husband here with me. God. It’s still odd to say those things. Okay, so some might being saying, “hell, that was quick!” but really, remember our relationship had started about 10 months ago. Yes we hadn’t hooked up until eight months later but our first kiss ever was technically 10 months ago. I forgot to mention that didn’t I? Oh well. So yeah. We’ve been living together for two months and it’s gone pretty smooth. Kinda. Levi freaks if there’s a speck of dust on the counter and I often find him with growing drafts. Damn midget.

 

I looked up from the bills, rubbing my eyes. Levi was upstairs in the shower. I groaned and flopped down on the table. My head hurt and I was terrible at math. I stood up and went over to get some food. I opened the pantry and found bread and cheese. I took the bread, broke off a piece and munched on it slowly while staring out the window. I was about to take another bite when I heard a cry from upstairs.

 

Levi.

 

I turned around and went to race up the stairs when someone grabbed me and knocked me out.

 

I woke up later in a room with light leaking in through the small window. Levi sat in the chair opposite me, his left eye black and purple. I felt my wrists hurt and I noticed I was tied up. What was this? Hanji sat in the corner as well next to Mikasa and Armin who were all tied up. What is going on?

 

“Morning, Eren.” Snarled a voice. Erwin came into the room and closed the door behind him.

 

“Erwin. What is this all about?” asked Levi.

 

“I found this under a floorboard in your house.” He said lifting a piece of paper.

 

“Oh no.” I whispered. “It can’t be. –“

 

“It says here you two are legal partners. Explain.” He said crossing his arms.

 

“It’s my fault, Commander.” Said Hanji. “I tricked you so these two could have a house together. I’m sorry.” She muttered.

 

“So. . .i still don’t know what’s going on?” he asked.

 

“I’m in love with Eren.” Said Levi confidently turning the shade of Mikasa’s scarf.

 

“And I’m in love with Levi.” I stated with the same attitude.

 

“I never would have thought that you contained such a sin, Levi. I thought you were better then that.” Said Erwin coldly. Levi looked down, ashamed.

 

There was a long pause.

 

“The right thing to do would be to kick you out of the Regiment but seaming as you two are the best two fighters we have, I can’t do that. But. You have to keep this a secret. If anyone else were to find out you’d certainly be executed.” He stated. I heard Mikasa gasp.

 

This was now a matter of life or death.

 

___

“Don’t blame this on me, Eren!” yelled Levi as he stormed around the kitchen throwing things into the pot on the stove. I stood; clenching my fists, yelling till my throat went raw.

 

“It’s all your fault! I told you it was a stupid idea to put it in the floorboard! Even an idiot could tell it was there! God!” I shouted. He slammed the metal spoon into the pot.

 

“WHERE ELSE WAS I GOING TO HIDE IT?! HUH?! GOT A BETTER IDEA, TITAN?” he shouted.

 

“WENN SIE GERADE AUF MICH GEHORT –“

 

“EREN. I DON’T SPEAK FUCKING GERMAN!”

 

“WELL THEN PICK UP A GODDAMN BOOK ONCE IN A WHILE AND MAYBE YOU CAN LEARN SOMETHING, DUMBASS!”

 

“LOOK WHO’S TALKING, TITAN BOY! YOU COULDN’T SOLVE A SINGLE MATH PROBLEM IF IT WERE 2 + 2!”

 

“OH YEAH?! WHO WENT TO SCHOOL?!”

 

“I WENT TO SCHOOL!”

 

“WHEN!? BEFORE OR AFTER YOU LIVED ON THE STREETS!”

 

“I’M PROBABLY MORE INTELLIGANT THEN YOUR TITAN SIZED BRAIN.”

 

“HAVE YOU SEEN THEIR HEADS!? THEY’RE BRAINS ARE PROBABLY BIGGER THEN YOURS AT LEAST!”

 

“OH THAT’S RICH. WHO HAS THE HIGHER MILITARY POSITION HERE? WHO’S HUMANITY’S BRIGHTEST HOPE? WHO IN THE MOTHERFUCKING WORLD DO YOU THINK YOU’RE YELLING AT?”

 

“You know what, fuck you. You’re nothing but a mean, unsociable, grumpy old man that has no sympathy for anyone but his goddamn self! No wonder you let Petra die!” I said. Shit. I took it too far. Something in the room changed. An eerie silence filled the room and suddenly, Levi wasn’t in the room at all. I stood, frozen hearing the door slam.

 

I suddenly couldn’t feel my legs and went crashing to the floor. I felt hot tears flood out of my eyes and I gripped the leather of my boots. I started to sob. What had I done?

 

5.

Little Eren?

 

I slid my eyes open, the smell of sunlight wafting my senses. I rolled over and nearly fell off the couch. I had been avoiding the bed for obvious reasons. It has been three weeks and nothing has happened. We’ve barely talked to each other, once in a while one of us would explode in front of the other and we would spiral back to depression. It wasn’t what you could call a working relationship. I sighed, noting that there was a crack in the ceiling. Levi will have a fit. . .

 

 . . .then I feel something on my arm.

 

I turn my head to the side and am immediately met with two, large grey eyes. They blinked and my eyes widened. They were attached to a little face and a little body. The body was dressed in a light blue onzie and it’s hair was surprisingly a familiar color. And so were the eyes. I felt a little hand bop my nose and the little boy giggled as I sat up and gasped.

 

“LLLLEEEVVVVIIIII!?!?” I screamed. I heard a crash and footsteps as Levi emerged in the doorway, his hair messy and eyes wide. He was still in his pjamas, a long white shirt with soft black pants, and he rubbed his eyes, noticing it wasn’t a titan or Erwin.

 

“What do you want, Eren?” he asked sleepily.

 

“Look.” I said pointing to the little boy who had given up on trying to stand on his own and was now sitting on the floor, sucking his fist. He looked up at us and Levi blinked.

 

“Who’s baby is that and why is it in our house?” asked Levi, bored. I shook my head.

 

“I don’t know! He was here when I woke up!” I cried. Then, we heard a bang and Hanji slammed her way into the room.

 

“LUCA! I FINALLY FOUND YOU!” shouted the woman, swooping the child into her arms and burying her face in his brown hair.

 

“When?” asked Levi.

 

“Hm? Oh! I haven’t told you. I was actually on my way over to explain –“

 

“Now, Shitty Glasses.” Said Levi using Hanji’s nickname. Mine was brat I guess.

 

“Well, awhile back, I took both of your genes, combined them in an experiment and let this little guy form.”

 

“When the hell did you take our genes?” asked Levi.

 

“When you were asleep, of course!” she said waving it off like it was no big deal. We stared at her.

 

“So, I made a simulator to simulate a womb and let Luca here grow into a full healthy baby. It was going to be a girl. We all thought it was until Beatrice turned out to be a boy.” She said smiling.

 

“So. . . . he’s basically our son?” I asked.

 

“Yup. He grew a lot faster then normal babies but I swear, he’s normal now and shouldn’t have any problems. I was going to give him to you as a wedding gift but then he got sick so I had to hold off and then you started fighting –“

 

“So you expect us to take him in and raise him?” asked Levi, totally not keen on this new idea.

 

“That’s the idea. Oh. I named him Luca because, I mean, I think you’re Italian, Levi so I tried to look for Italian names. Sorry Eren. Germany has the dullest of names.” She said smiling and handed him back to me. I held him while he looked up at me and bopped my nose again.

 

“Well have fun with him.” she said and disappeared.

 

“So now we have to raise a baby, when we’re still arguing.” Sighed Levi. I nodded and I tickled Luca’s cheek. He giggled.

 

“Aw! Look at him! he’s kinda cute.” I said. “Hey. He has your eyes.”

 

Levi looked up.

 

“Here, take him.” I said handing him over to Levi.

 

“Do you know how filthy babies are!? No way in hell, brat.” He said crossing his arms.  

 

“Oh, come on. You are his father.” I stated.

 

“And so are you. Now keep that poopie baby away from me.” snarled Levi but I had already shoved the child into his arms. He rolled his eyes and looked at him. once glance and Levi’s grey eyes grew as he stared into the similar one’s on Luca. I walked over to them and placed my arms around them both.

 

“We’re a family now.” I sighed, placing my chin on his shoulder. he sighed.

 

“Yeah, I guess so.” He muttered and I smiled.

 

___

 

the first time we walked up to training with Luca was. . .interesting. Levi had him strapped to him and he wore his blue onezie with the Wings of Freedom stitched hastily on the back. Everyone stared but luckily Hanji stepped forward and explained our little situation.

 

“Why can’t he ride with me?” I whispered while Hanji was still explaining.

 

“Because I don’t want you turning into a titan with our son strapped to your chest. Who’s humanities strongest?” he asked. I rolled my eyes.

 

“You.”

 

“Who’s the best husband ever?”

 

“You.”

 

“And who’s gonna be the best dad ever?”

 

“Me.”

 

I got punched but I noticed he was almost smiling. Almost.

 

 

Taking Some Time Off?

 

I knew I was making noises again. Weird, noises I made only when feeding Luca. Like little ‘nerps’ and ‘boops’. And my sexy husband wasn’t having it. His brow was heavily furrowed and his teeth were openly clenched and he was snarling.

 

“Eren,” he said trying to keep his voice even. “Can you please stop making those unbearable baby noises!?”

 

I giggled.

 

“I can’t help it!” I said happily but I wondered if he’d kick me out of bed again so I tried to stop. I picked Luca out of his chair and placed him on my shoulder to burp him. it was my night to take care of Luca. We switched off every night to make it easier but I liked taking care of Luca. I patted his back and once I’d gotten a satisfied burp or two, I started to stand up to put him to bed.

 

“Here, I’ll do it.” Sighed Levi. He stood up and carefully, trying to wake him, placed him on his shoulder, cooing to him softly. I petted his head and leaned in to kiss Levi on the forehead.

 

“Thanks.” I said and cleared the dishes while Levi walked upstairs to put Luca to bed. I started on the dishes and soon after I felt a pair of arms wrap around my torso and a soft sigh.

 

I turned around and leaned down to lock our lips in a lingering kiss. He entwined his hands through my hair and I pressed him up against me.

 

“Hey I wanna talk about something.” I said softly. Levi broke away with a worried expression.

 

“What?”

 

“Um. . .well. . .so you know how everyone thinks that Luca is your cousin right and that he rides with you when we have to go out?” I say hesitantly. Usually, Luca surprisingly wasn’t phased at all by the titan fights. He laid against Levi’s chest, strapped heavily against him and usually slept, chewing on his cravat as Levi soared through the air with me hot on his heals all the while.

 

“Yeah. . .? you’re point, cutie?” asked Levi.

 

“Well I was just thinking. . .maybe it’s a little dangerous and maybe, if we have Hanji explain things over with Erwin I could stay home with him while trying to find a babysitter.” I said rather hastily.

 

He stared at me.

 

Then sighed.

 

Oh no.

 

The sigh.

 

That’s never a good sign!

 

“Alright. I’ll speak with Erwin first thing tomorrow morning. I was actually thinking the same thing.” He said scratching the back of his neck.

 

“Yay! Thank you, honey bunches of love –“

 

“Don’t ever call me that.” He said but ignored him, snatching him up in a huge hug.

 

“Sometimes I regret agreeing to marry you.” He snapped. I pulled away, pretending to tear up. I was kinda good at it.

 

“Y-you what!?” I sniffled. He rolled his eyes and crashed our lips together.

 

“O-okay. I forgive you.” I said and we took it upstairs.

 

If you know what I mean.

 

_

 

“So, you want me to give Eren time to take care of Luca so he doesn’t get hurt in battle until you find a babysitter?” asked Erwin. I gulped.

 

“Yes sir. Give us a week.” Asked Levi. Hanji stood nervously behind me, shifting her weight from foot to foot. Erwin sighed.

 

“I suppose that’s reasonable.” He said. I looked up smiling.

 

“Arigato! I’ll try to be back at it as soon as possible!” I said happily. And that was that.

 

__at the babysitter job interview__

 

I stood in the kitchen, bouncing slightly, moving from foot to foot as I held Luca. Levi was shuffling through papers and making sure the twenty-six young woman didn’t make a mess in the living room. I couldn’t believe how many responses we’d gotten from the flyer we’d put up. It said;

 

BABYSTITER NEEDED FOR A INFANT BOY NAMED LUCA ACKERMAN-JAEGER

 

AGE RANGE- 20-50

PARENTS-HEICHOU LEVI OF THE SURVEY CORPS AND CADET CARLA OF THE SURVEY CORPS (Erwin made me use a woman’s name and I chose my mother’s) ACKERMAN-JAEGER

IF INTERESTED, PLEASE COME TO (address) AT 6:00, THIS SATURDAY EVENING

 

PLEASE HAVE A PRE-WRITTEN PAPER ON YOUR NAME, AGE, AND EXPIRIENCE

 

THANK YOU

 

I shifted slightly as the dress I was wearing itched like hell. Levi said I looked super sexy and had gotten a nose bleed but I wasn’t convinced. Hanji said I didn’t need to change my voice or put on a wig. Just the dress and. . .fake boobs. They were nasty.

 

“Ready for the first one?” asked Levi and I sat next to him.

 

“Yes.” I said and he let the first one in.

 

he opened the door, calling out the number and a small blonde girl came twirling in, her yellow braids swinging behind her.  

“You may begin.”

 

“My name is Caroline Evans, I’m 23 and I absolutely love children! I have seven little siblings at home so taking care of children has been my life for a while. My father was in the survey corps and was killed five years ago but I still support my siblings.” She finished. I cocked an eyebrow. Seems like a nice girl. Levi, who finished writing his notes, dismissed her and told her to tell #2 it was her turn.

 

The rest of the girls were pretty much the same except one who was 65, above our age limit, and her interview went like this;

 

“My name is Helga Reyfield, I’m 65 years old and think children should be disciplined to the brink! And surely the son of two military soldiers should be well disciplined.  I would be more than happy to teach the child.” She said. I was scared by this point and hugged now sleeping Luca closer to my chest. Levi was writing furiously and told her she was dismissed.

 

Another went like this;

 

“My name is Mina Crestley! I’m 20 years old and love, love, LOVE babies! I wanna have tons of babies when I grow older and marry and OH MY GOD is that your son!? He’s super, super cute! His little cheeks –“

 

“Next.” Levi had snapped coldly and that was the end of her.

 

afterwards we sat flipping through his notes.

 

“I liked #14. Oh, Creepy Teacher Helga.” Said Levi. I gasped.

 

“Are you kidding me!? she was all like, ‘I’m gonna get your son into shape!’ I don’t want a woman like her touching our son.” I said angrily. Levi rolled his eyes and talked about three more. There names were Veronica, Martha, and Annalisa.

 

They all sat in front of us and after a minute of practically staring at them, he sighed and folded his hands.

 

“I’ve called you three back because I think you’re reasonable candidates. But there’s one thing left to discuss.” Sighed Levi. I nodded and stood up and closed the door to the kitchen. I sat back down, placing Luca in Levi’s arms and undid the dress, letting it fall away to reveal just a plain shirt and pants, the fake boobs falling as well.

 

“Thank god that’s over! Being a woman is so uncomfortable!” I said, stretching my limbs as the girls stared.

 

“So. . . you’re gay?” asked Martha. We nodded. Veronica giggled.

 

“Aw. That’s so sweet.” She said but the other two didn’t look convinced.

 

“Yeah, this is Eren, my husband and this is our genetically mutated son, Luca. Now we need to discuss something.” Said Levi.

 

“It’s the fact if one of us doesn’t come back.” He said slowly. I looked at my hands in my lap and clenched my fists.

 

“Levi. . .”

 

“It might happen. One day, we might both go out on a mission and only one of us may come back. But I need to know which one of you will be prepared for that. The other one won’t be physically able or mentally to take care of Luca for awhile and I need you to be prepared for that.” Said Levi.

 

“Tell us honestly.” I said slowly. I started with Martha.

 

“I’m sorry, you two. But I don’t think I’d be able to do something like that.” She said and left.

 

“Annalisa?”

 

“Being gay is wrong! God should punish you both!” she screamed and left. Okay. . .

 

“I’d be happy to do anything for you guys.” Smiled Veronica.

 

“Thank goodness.” I sighed and Levi nodded.

 

“Great. Thank you. We look forward to having you.” Smiled Levi and the girl walked out. I sighed and rocked Luca who had fallen asleep.

 

+ WARNING +

NEXT PART CONTAINS HARD YAOI

DON’T LIKE,

DON’T FUCKING READ

 

“Do you want me to. . .?” he asked pointing to the sleeping angel.

 

“Nah, I got it. You clean up.” I said winking and saw a sparkle in his eyes at the mention of ‘cleaning something’. I walked upstairs and opened the oak door to Luca’s bedroom. He started to stir in my arms and I laid him down in his crib. I sat there and watched his grey eyes search my face.

 

“You, know? I never actually wanted to be a father. It was so fast. Your daddy and I were fighting and I never imagined something like you could stitch us back together. Your Auntie Hanji did us a favor.” I said smiling at him. he giggled and hugged the titan doll Hanji gave him. he blinked twice, yawned and was out again. I smiled again and walked downstairs to see Levi cleaning happily. I leaned against the doorframe and crossed my arms, watching him.

 

his muscles retracted every time he moved and his midnight hair swirled around his face, getting in his eyes. His skin the perfect shade of ivory glistened in the light glow of the lantern. When he was done, he removed his mask and jumped when he saw me.

 

“You should’ve told me you were watching.” He snapped and I smiled unfolding my arms and chuckled.

 

“I like watching you.” I admitted and he made his famous ‘tch.’

 

He walked over to me and pulled out bodies together, his eyelids drooping and his breath gasping on my neck. He reached up and grabbed my neck, forcing me down to kiss him and I happily kissed him back. He slipped his tongue into my mouth and I didn’t even try to gain dominance. He pinned me against the wall, gaining a whimper from me. I grabbed his leg and wrapped it around my waist.

 

“Let’s go upstairs.” He said in between kisses. I nodded and followed him upstairs until he pushed me down on our bed and straddled my hips. I sat up so he could kiss me and he gripping and pulled at my hair.

 

“Ngh, ah.” I moaned as I started to get hard.

 

“Ah, gah, Levi. . .?” I pleaded and he bit my neck.

 

“N-no. . .ah. . .d-down. . .” I said and he finally got the clue and unzipped my pants. He smiled down at me, well, smirked and grabbed it with both hands.

 

“NAGH! GAH-CK!” I screamed as he pumped. I started to pant as I felt myself build up.

 

“Leeeeviii. . . “

 

“Damn it, Eren! Hold on, a little bit longer. . .” but it was too late and I released with a gasp all over his hands. He glared at me while I panted and whimpered. My cheeks were fully flushed and my nipple hard. My mouth was open with a trail of drool hanging down and he wiped his hands on his coat and threw it off along with the rest of his cloths. He spread my legs apart and aimed.

 

“No, hold on I’m not AH!” I screamed as he pounded into me, leaving me panting and breathless. He thrusted in and out harder and harder making tears leak out of my eyes and whimper after whine escaped my mouth. I felt it get tight and Levi grunted.

 

“That’s n-not fair –ahhahah. . .”I sobbed as he c**ed inside me. it hurt, it did really and I’m glad my skin hadn’t broken. That was first time in days. I closed my dripping legs and Levi collapsed on top of me panting. I was still crying softly, wiping my eyes. He glanced up and cupped my face in his hand. He wiped the tears away with his thumb.

 

“I’m sorry. You were just really tight.” Moaned Levi softly and I smiled through the tears.

 

“Let’s go take a shower. I feel all sticky.”  I muttered and I followed him to the bathroom.

 

A/N

Levi: * applauds * finally. Hey, can I stick a bottle up his ass next time or something?

Me: I haven’t even started to author’s note and here you go. . .

Eren: no! Writer-sama, don’t! please don’t!

Me: don’t worry, Eren. I’ll keep you safe

Eren: * bows * thank you!

 

Alright so that took FO-EVA to write! And I’ve been having some serious family issues so I’m just updating everything tonight! Go me! and I have finals, ballet evaluations, musical, ballet performance, a book report in adv. Social Studies and now I have to update. And keep up with my vine. Great. Oh, and speaking of vine 400+ followers! Yay! Anyway, forgive me. seriously I should be writing more. And if you want Makoto x Haru one-shots, Eren x Levi yaoi lemons, or just for the hell of it, follow me on Tumblr, HeichouLovesTitan!

 

-Lyka

 

a/n

 

this story has gotten so dumb! OH MY GOD! It’s so stupid. So if you don’t mind, I’m gonna have this chapter take a serious turn. FEELS.

 

I walked across the grass, my boots picking up dirt around my toes as I hugged my bleeding arm, waiting for the titan healing to kick in. my cape was torn hallway off my shoulders and I could feel the gash in my cheek healing. One of my blades was snapped in half and the other covered in my own blood and mud. I didn’t cry for some reason. I couldn’t force tears out of my frozen eyes. Yet, a hollow burning surrounded my insides. Mikasa - who was sitting on the edge of the body cart - looked up as I neared. She slipped off silently and encircled me in her arms. Still no tears. I could see Levi over her shoulder, kicking rocks with his hands in his pockets. He wasn’t looking at me. I wasn’t looking at him. I bit my lip and she buried her face in my shoulder.

 

“Eren –“

 

“Don’t.” I said silently and went over to talk to Levi.

 

“Was it our faults? I mean –“ he began but I cut him off by hugging him. he squeezed me hard enough, making my head more clear.

 

“It isn’t our faults.”

 

“We were the one’s who hired her. we entrusted her with him. we did it, Eren.” Muttered Levi. I shook my head.

 

30 minutes earlier

 

I sat at the squad table, laughing at something Hanji said when the messenger came. He came, waving a letter and a worried expression.

 

“It’s the cult! The ones we’ve been worried about! They set the village on fire!” cried the boy as he came to a stop to breath. We all knew which village. The one the Survey Corps uses for the soldiers. Where we all live. I thought about Luca and I stood up with Levi, us exchanging worried looks.

 

“Are you Eren Jaeger-Ackerman?” asked the messenger. I nodded and he handed me the letter in his hand. With shaky hands I opened it revealing a letter from. . .Veronica. The babysitter. Shit. Fuck. Damn it. FUCK NO. This isn’t happening. I started to read it.

 

To Eren and Levi,

 

I should’ve warned you. My family has ties with some anti-Survey Corps cult. They believe you guys just steal our tax money to sit around on your butts and do nothing. I had no idea they’d attack. They burned your house down with the rest of everyone else’s. I am writing to you from the hospital. I have only minor burns but. . .Luca was upstairs, taking a nap like he’s supposed to and. . .i couldn’t get up the stairs. They’d collapsed. He eventually came to me, coughing and calling for his parents. I grabbed him then and we ran to the hospital. I’m. . .he died. Only an hour after we’d gotten treatment. They told me no matter how much oxygen they tried to force into his little lungs, they were rejecting any source of air. He suffocated. We have his body if you want to burry him. I’m so sorry. You don’t have to pay me. I’ll pay you.

 

Veronica

 

I couldn’t breath. My heart had stopped and my knees buckled beneath me and I came crashing to the ground, the letter falling out of my limp grip and my hands over my mouth. Vomiting wasn’t an option. Tears flooded out of my eyes and down my hands. Levi was shaking me, but I didn’t respond, only turned to him and gripped him.

 

“Eren!? Eren what’s wrong!?” he called, still shaking me. “Eren you’re scaring me –“

 

“He’s gone. My baby.” I cried into him and his horrified expression told me the got it. He snatched up the letter and read it about four times before standing up and running. No one called him back. No one tried. No one dared.

 

Present

 

I shook my head and let Levi think more. I walked away and sat down on the body cart next to Mikasa as she rubbed my back.

 

“I know . . .I don’t understand what it’s like . . .I’ve never been a mother yet . . .but I understand how hard it is to loose a child.” She mumbled and I nodded, numbly.

 

“Thanks Mika-chan.” I muttered and returned my gaze to the ground where my bloody boots sat staring up at me. glittering in the sunlight. I smiled down at them. Luca was dead. My little angel that we’d only had for half a year was gone. But I could tell, this was for the better. It was like he was only brought to us to bring us together. But they do say the loss of a child in a family is a cause for break up. Both parent is blaming themselves creating an unhealthy enviorment for the entire family weither it’s just the two parents or another child. But I saw it as a way to come together and greive. We both accepted it. But I had no idea this was just the beginging.

 

A/N

 

Boom.

 

Done.

 

And this is so short because the entire time I was listening to K-Pop and then I got distracted by sexy EXO music videos and. . .yeah. anyway . . .i’m sorry if this was sad for you. I sure am sad! Damn that was dark! Anyway and CLIFFHANGER.

 

Have fun with that.

 

Until next time, Little Titans.

 

 

 

IM BACK.

 

Dun dun DAAAAHHH

 

Thought I died?

 

Thought I fell into a wormhole of emptiness?

 

Think I was hiding from you?

 

The last one is probably more accurate. I HAVE FUCKED EVERY READER OF THIS STORY FOR THE LAST CHAPTER. I’M SORRY. Seriously, though, Eren was right. It was for the better. I have so much more planned now that Luca’s gone.

 

Sorry.

 

But it’s true. He was making it fluffy and not dramatic like I wanted it to be. I almost killed Levi. I almost bloody did it. But I didn’t cause . . .i don’t want to die early. So there’s my really long note on why I haven’t updated in FOREVER.

 

Don’t kill me.

 

Please.

 

______________

I sat at the kitchen table, twiddling my thumbs, waiting for it to be over. I had to endure the funeral.

 

That was six months ago.

 

We were just now moving all the baby furniture out of the room. Now It sat with a single wooden chair, his stuffed titan, and his ashes. I wanted his ashes. I wanted a piece of him. I needed a reminder I had a child. That we had a child. That Luca existed. Levi was doing most of the moving with Erwin, taking down the all the heavy stuff. I wasn’t mentally nor emotionally ready to go up there. the nightmares still haunt me. I wanted to say, ‘oh, because Levi sleeps with me the nightmares disappear’ like any normal romance drama. But I couldn’t. no matter how cuddled he was up to me, I woke up sobbing with him shaking me while I lay in a pile of sweaty blankets on the floor. I don’t understand why. We had about half a year with him. literally. It’s not like I gave birth to him, saw his first step, heard his first word. No. he was just there. I’ve become rather cold against humanity and . . .well life, really since he died. I’ve officially vacated into my emo corner. Forever. Levi has too. He’s gone back to being the dickhead he was before we got married, and not just to everyone. It was starting to affect me.

 

Of course, he comes to me after, apologizing till he’s blue in the face but it still happens.

 

An example.

 

Levi and I were cleaned one day when I slipped and spilled coffee all over the kitchen floor.

 

“Eren, you dumbass! Now you have to pick it all up and I was going to sweep the kitchen next. Now I have to wait for your fat ass to pick them all up!” he would snap while rolling his eyes. That was similar to the first outburst. The first one, I’d cried and had a two hour talk with Hanji about divorce. Thankfully, that didn’t happen. I still love him. oh god, do I still love him. it’s just . . .I’m trying to give him space, you know? Some people just need space after something tragic.

 

But I wasn’t expecting what happened while I was dumbly playing with my thumbs this afternoon.

 

I was just sitting there, thinking about the past and Luca when they came downstairs.

 

“Alright. Everything’s out. See you later.” Said Erwin and walked out. Levi brushed his hands together, wiping the sweat off his forehead and I turned around and smiled.

 

“Do you want some tea? I was just about to make a pot –“

 

“I’m moving in with Erwin tomorrow.” He said, biting his lip. I felt my world end. Was he giving up on me? Was he tossing me aside? Would we get a divorce?

 

“W-what?”

 

“I’m moving in with Erwin tomorrow, you twat! Are you de – oh god, Eren, Eren, I’m sorry I didn’t mean it –“ he started to explain when I started crying.

 

“You’re leaving me? what did I do? What have I done? Do you resent me now? Do you hate me? I’m sorry if I’m not fucking perfect –“

 

“Eren, stop. I just need a shower. No one’s moving. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said it. I’ll be upstairs.” He said and turned to walk up the stairs. He then sighed and walked over to where I was sitting and grabbed my face and kissed me. it was our first kiss in two months.

 

Crazy right?

 

I happily excepted his kiss and we broke away.

 

“I didn’t mean it, okay? I love you. You didn’t do anything wrong. I love you too much to leave you, Eren.” He said, giving me one last kiss on the forehead. I nodded, smiling and watched him go off to shower. Shaking off the tears and fear I had just endured, I walked to the kitchen to make the tea I promised I’d make.

 

When I heard a sound.

 

It wasn’t like a large sound. More of like a small puff of air. I turned around, no one was there. I went back to the tea bag when it happened again, but louder, and I could tell it was by the window. I walked over and opened the curtains to see Hanji, her face pressed up against the glass, grinning.

 

“Holy shit, Hanji! What the hell are you doing!?” I whisper-shouted, opening the window.

 

“I came to ask you something. Would you like to participate in an experiment?”

 

CLIFFHANGER.

What will it be, Hanji?

 

Yeah baby chapter. Ah well. No, they aren’t splitting up. I just needed that dramatic fight to restart the good feels of ‘I still love you and I’d never hurt you’ thing. Anyway, like all teenagers become during the summer, I’ve become a lazy ass that watches YouTube all day while I should be writing so if any of you want to offer ideas for a plot twist or some amazing thing, I’m all open to ideas! If you want, comment below or private message me!

 

Thanks to all you amazing readers who have put up with me half-assing everything all the time.

 

Tootles.

 

Yeah. I’m here again. So I had this brilliant idea to continue this story with. And then I realized . . .it sucked. Bad. So I’ll give you (as readers) to choose the path for this fic cause I’m really fucking confused.

 

• my first bad Idea was for Hanji to have some theory about titans being able to grow extra organs and Levi and Eren actually having a real baby. Seriously, I wrote the whole birth scene and everything. But then I realized it was stupid.

 

• My second idea was for Hanji to try an experiment on Eren and it goes horribly wrong and he becomes an insane vampire zombie thing and is executed. Yeah that one sucks too.

 

• And so my final idea was to bring back the quirky mood and continue just writing fluff

 

Remember to comment your favorites cause I’M SO LOST AND I DON’T WANT TO GIVE UP ON THIS.